#DearMayor

"Because even if I should speak, no one would believe me, and they would not believe me precisely because they would know that what I said was true." - James Baldwin "Speak anyways; I know this is not actual justice, it's human trafficking to cover actual abuse." - SMS Dear Mayor London Breed, I saw your speech last week regarding the murder in Memphis, TN where you stated, "This wouldnt have happened if he wasnt black" but you've still ignored a 35 minute choke hold of myself in your own city, and those men stay free. Juan Wembes and Jose Campos are their names. There was a 3rd there too, but he was "accidentally" left out of the police report by Kyle Roach. It's sad even when five black cops committ murder, you chose to make it about race instead of making it about abuse of power. I've included a link to a clip of the choke hold and also to me addressing you last year in case you forgot the abuse or our previous encounter...

If you wish to call me racist, dont disregard that I was called a nigger while being put unconcious. I will also remind you that I've been to Africa four times to serve those with less. Have you been once while you've pushed racism here? I've now sat in a jail cell for 24 hours a day for more than 6 months, and have witnessed more than one cop passing drugs in a city you allegedly govern, the last one doing so was Deputy Choi. If you're not part of the solution, you're part of the problem; I truly wanted you to be an ally. If you're not going to acknowledge a 35 minute choke hold in your city, don't bitch about what allegedly happens because you're black; because the truth is, I would've much rather died that night than live this hell of your ignorance. George Floyds family got $27 million for 9 minutes, how much should one get for 35, or do you have to be murdered or commit suicide to matter in this life? I've already tried while in present custody by swallowing 70 tylenol, and Deputy Uyeda forcing me to let him watch me shit isn't lessening this burden. My own father has threatened to bash my head in with a baseball bat. An ex step dad, Robert Bondy, forced me to strip naked each time he beat me with his belt. Another, Robert Bailey, was taking pictures of me in my sleep when I thought I was in a safe place, and a priest offered me $500 to suck me off because, "You could really use the money." I wont disregard the effects of sexual assault in college at the hands of Sig Eps, that too many women have faced too for the fraternal system in colleges as a whole refusing to acknowledge their abuse; as Dean of Student Life, John Frazier, told me when reporting, "Now that your fun is over you want to make trouble for everyone else", and it takes 3 days to get called back by a policing agency; I guess because sexual assaults are supposed to be fun.

I share to say it is not about race but the power of authority that never should have been. I would not be here at all if the false police reports were not filed the night of the choke hold, a felony if I'm not mistaken. Yet, I still do not hate these people, I only hate what they cause that welcomes me among others to be preyed on financially, mentally, physically, and sexually. I know this is not actual justice, its human trafficking to cover actual abuse, and I'm nothing but a scape goat of exploitation, at least until this reality has changed...

The reality that this government cancelled my counseling cold turkey. The reality that an alleged victim can get a restraining order issued that states she's scared a gay man might rape her. The reality that I couldn't get a restraining order from Clint Billingsly when standing before a judge with a black eye. The reality that I had 6 jobs in 4 months in your city and Susan Thompson called me her bitch at work when I'm buying food for her restaurant with my food stamp card. The reality that lets me be denied due wages without consequence; and the reality that this government lets Kathy Lee Griffin portray herself beheading Trump without a day in jail, but doesnt allow a man to stand up to any ignorant privilege forcing me to show my asshole to strangers while they ignore a choke hold of 35 minutes and bitch for change they've done nothing for. #timesup #metoo